What do you do when you feel discouraged?  What do you do when you feel distant from everyone you love?  What do you when you feel disconnected from the harvest you worked so hard to sow?  What do you do when you feel you can’t go on anymore like how you are?  What do you do when you feel you can’t start over again, again?  What do you do when the word “trust” sounds sorely unattainable and the word “persevere” seems all too unbearable?

What do I do now?

My God.  Oh, my God.  My heart.  How it hurts.  Not the one that beats physically but the one that breaks figuratively.  The one that has already broken.  My God.  Oh, my God.  Fix me.