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Shifting Sandcastles.

In Thoughts. on June 24, 2013 at 1:28 am
Little Malia playing in the sand
Little Malia building castles with her hands
Fill, pack, turn, pat
Remove the bucket and voila
Not so little wave rushing up to the shore
Not so little wave crushing all she worked for
Build, break, rush, flood
Surround the castle til it’s gone
 
Little Malia playing in the sand
Little Malia building castles with her hands
Fill, pack, turn, pat
Remove the bucket and voila
Not so little wave rushing up to the shore
Not so little wave crushing all she worked for
Build, break, rush, flood
Surround the castle til it’s gone
 
Little Malia playing in the sand
Little Malia building castles with her hands
Not so little wave probably on its way
Little Malia continuing to build and obey
 
For perhaps, building castles is not the end goal…just a thought, but rather building character within the soul is what it’s all about.
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I don’t know why everything happens in my life the way that it does.  Be it too many hobbies or states or circles, I feel, that have been drawn too big for me, I’ve become rather acquainted with ground zero lately.   And at this moment, I’m frustrated.  Very frustrated.

Still in a time when the unfamiliar has become my familiar, when the chaos has become my norm, and when the realization and reality of not knowing anything is what I have come to know best, I dig my hands into the sand once again ready to build.  And I build.

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Dear God,

Just say, “When…”

Homework: Due April 23, 2014.

In Thoughts. on June 8, 2013 at 8:35 pm

#1.  Eat at the restaurant I got fired from—That happened, and I am so glad it did.

#2.  Dance with friends from college—Remember that one time.

#3.  Write 50 entries—What it comes down to is fighting for time to write.

#4.  Go back to Mexico—I’m going back for my Karlíta.

#5.  Visit the Statue of Liberty—I live in NY.  That’s embarrassing.

#6.  Try 3 new NY dance studios—Here’s to year #3 in NY!

#7.  Invite a homeless woman to lunch—It’s much easier to just give food or money.  It’s more of a sacrifice for me to give of my time.

#8.  Eat at Archway Café.—For those of you who were directly in my life for the season while I was at Archway, you know that working there was one of the most…character-building experiences I’ve undergone.  Ever.  Sorry, Arthur, if you’re reading this, but it’s true.

#9.  Complete and frame an art piece of mine—I used do a lot of watercolor and oil pastel works when I was at our Waipio home.  Since high school, I have yet to find a space as inspiring as my old room.

#10.  See Miss Saigon or Next to Normal—I LOVE these soundtracks, but I’ve never seen the shows!

#11.  Join a team at church—So most of my time in NY thus far has been lived under the assumption that I was going to move “soon.”  This fall, though, I’m doing it.  I’m committing.  I’m going to serve and get involved.

#12.  Make HI 2013 happen—My NY friends have already begun to plan HI 2013.  However, the difference between them and me is that they have real jobs and are able to plan for things seven months in advance.  I, on the other hand, am not afforded that luxury.  Still, I am confident this trip will happen…and I will be on it.

#13.  Put my pointe shoes on again—It’s been ten years.  Must I say more?

#14.  Explore upstate NY—I’m thinking I’ll take a train up to the Adirondecks after camp ends in PA but before I get a job in NY again.  Approximate time frame, mid-August.  Holla if you want in.

#15.  Sing karaoke in a public place—Private rooms?  Oh yeah. Public bars with people I don’t know?  No gracias.

#16.  Visit Sawsan—For those of you who don’t know Sawsan, she works in the dining commons and Michelle and I used to have breakfast with her nearly every day while in college.  I haven’t seen or talked to Sawsan since graduation day.

#17.  Learn how to tie a tie—I’ve always wanted to learn.  That’s it.

#18.  Rehearse and perform—I don’t care which state I’m in or which show it’s for, I  MISS IT.

#19.  Read a great literary work—My reading list is ridiculously long.

#20.  Get together with high school friends—It’s been a while.

#21.  Explore a state I’ve never been to—I’ve been to Hawaii, California, Oregon, Washington, Utah, Arizona, Nevada, Wisconsin, Minnesota, Michigan, Illinois, Ohio, Louisiana, Pennsylvania, Massachusetts, New Jersey, New York, Connecticut, Virginia, Maryland, North Carolina, South Carolina, and Georgia, so there are a lot to still explore.  Again, let me know if you want to go to one not on the list!

#22.  Play ball in my alma matter’s gym—Hanalani or Westmont, volleyball or basketball.  I’ll take either.

#23.  Memorize a chapter of the Bible—I’ve done Psalms 23, Romans 8, and Isaiah 53.  That would be 3 chapters in 24 years.  Oooosh.  Please keep me accountable about this.

#24.  Cook a Thanksgiving feast—I’ve been the guest for so many years, I want to start practicing for when I have guests of my own.